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By lovely mama, October 15, 2009 4:02 pm

No matter how many times I’ve been witness to it in my life and the lives of those I love, I am utterly awestruck at God’s perfect timing.  Several days ago, I was reading Lysa’s blog (like I do every morning) and she had just posted a link to a video of her {inspiring} message on the Most Powerful Two Word Prayer.  I settled in with my tea + knitting, and listened to Lysa’s sweet voice pour out some chicken soup for my soul.  I was determined to adopt her “script” for when things don’t go my way:

If this is the worst thing that happens today, it’s still a pretty good day.

And then, my youngest started screaming and the toilet almost overflowed and the oldest couldn’t find a pencil and…well, you know how it goes.

Fast forward to yesterday.  It was one of those days.  I began the day by posting this as my status on Facebook:

If you see my mojo run by, can you please tell it to come home? I really miss it!

I had a doctor’s appointment in the afternoon, to check on a lump I felt in my right breast.  I’m reallygood about doing self-exams (side note: I hope you all are feelingyourselves up regularly!!) and found a lump. I thought I was crazy atfirst, but after several days of feeling it, I called the doc (thinking the entire time that I was going to feel like an idiot when he told me I was crazy and there was nothing there to be alarmed about)

Well, that’s not what he told me. He instead is sending me for a mammogram and consult with a surgeon (for a biopsy).  Do you know what the first thought I had was after he said that? That’s right…

If this is the worst thing that happens to me today, it’s still a pretty good day.

So, here’s what we know about this lump: it’s not a hard mass. It’s got the consistency of a cooked kernel of corn on the cob – this is apparently a good thing, because hard masses are more likely to be malignant. It is not moveable, which is not such a good thing. It feels like it’s “anchored” to something (meaning, it can’t be manipulated when you touch it – it stays in place and moves with the surrounding tissue) IF it is malignant (which, at this point, is a big if – we really don’t know because it’s not a typical presentation) then it’s highly likely that we’ve caught it very early, because I did not feel any lump at all last month during the last self-exam. (This, again, is good – early detection is highly indicative of an excellent outcome)   On the down side, the dr is concerned about the size of the lump (it feels to be the size of a plump raisin) and the fact that it’s gotten this big quickly (ie: in the last 4 weeks) He wants me to do the tests after my next period (TMI?) so that means we can’t do it for 2 weeks. (Translation: that’s 2 weeks of practice telling myself that it’s still a pretty good day!)

I’m convinced that God put Lysa’s message on my heart just at the time I was going to need it. I am Praising God in the midst of my worry, of my fear, and of the unknown.  God is so good, and I know He is with me as I walk this path.  And it’s a pretty good day.

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By lovely mama, August 8, 2009 11:32 pm

Courage [kur-ij]noun: the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.

I’m not sure about y’all, but most of the time I’m pretty certain that the quality of my mind (and spirit) is pretty darned discouraging!  I go through days weeks feeling inadequate as a mother, as a friend, as a wife, as a daughter, and certainly as a Christian woman.  It’s a wonder with all of today’s pressures that any of us can manage to even get out of bed in the morning.  But get up and face the day we do.

My courage comes from the abundant blessings that my Almighty Father has showered on me.  These blessing are too many to possibly list, but here’s a small sampling of those that are forefront in my mind today:

• the feel of a small hand clasping mine as we walk down the street
• the warmth of the Hubster’s hug at the end of a long day
• the innocence of a boy’s prayers before bedtime
• the faith of a friend facing the battle of her life
• the trust of another friend facing a new chapter in her journey
• the memory of a brilliant sunset over the foothills of NC
• the pilgrimage of a {church} family to help strangers build their homes
• the love of a Father who knows my faults
• the Words of my Saviour who rescues me fromdespair

How do you find courage when you’re feeling inadequate?

So, have y’all seen the excitement that is {in}courage? It doesn’t go live officially until Monday, but just reading the list of fabulous women who are behind the scenes, it’s obvious that this place will be a blessing to oh-so-many women.

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By lovely mama, December 1, 2008 7:52 pm

Welcome to my new corner of the (virtual) world!  Most of you probably know me as the force behind Little Turtle Knits, but if you’ve read my blog there recently, you’ve probably noticed that I haven’t done a whole lotta writing about knitting.  My thoughts have been wandering more towards writing about my whole life.  The most popular post I ever wrote on that blog was on my Home Management Binder, so I’m hopeful that you’ll be excited to venture to this new space and get more tidbits + info like that. I certainly don’t have all the answers (I’m still trying to figure out the questions most days!) but I’m eager to share the ideas + tools that have worked in my life.

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