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By lovely mama, October 15, 2009 4:02 pm

No matter how many times I’ve been witness to it in my life and the lives of those I love, I am utterly awestruck at God’s perfect timing.  Several days ago, I was reading Lysa’s blog (like I do every morning) and she had just posted a link to a video of her {inspiring} message on the Most Powerful Two Word Prayer.  I settled in with my tea + knitting, and listened to Lysa’s sweet voice pour out some chicken soup for my soul.  I was determined to adopt her “script” for when things don’t go my way:

If this is the worst thing that happens today, it’s still a pretty good day.

And then, my youngest started screaming and the toilet almost overflowed and the oldest couldn’t find a pencil and…well, you know how it goes.

Fast forward to yesterday.  It was one of those days.  I began the day by posting this as my status on Facebook:

If you see my mojo run by, can you please tell it to come home? I really miss it!

I had a doctor’s appointment in the afternoon, to check on a lump I felt in my right breast.  I’m reallygood about doing self-exams (side note: I hope you all are feelingyourselves up regularly!!) and found a lump. I thought I was crazy atfirst, but after several days of feeling it, I called the doc (thinking the entire time that I was going to feel like an idiot when he told me I was crazy and there was nothing there to be alarmed about)

Well, that’s not what he told me. He instead is sending me for a mammogram and consult with a surgeon (for a biopsy).  Do you know what the first thought I had was after he said that? That’s right…

If this is the worst thing that happens to me today, it’s still a pretty good day.

So, here’s what we know about this lump: it’s not a hard mass. It’s got the consistency of a cooked kernel of corn on the cob – this is apparently a good thing, because hard masses are more likely to be malignant. It is not moveable, which is not such a good thing. It feels like it’s “anchored” to something (meaning, it can’t be manipulated when you touch it – it stays in place and moves with the surrounding tissue) IF it is malignant (which, at this point, is a big if – we really don’t know because it’s not a typical presentation) then it’s highly likely that we’ve caught it very early, because I did not feel any lump at all last month during the last self-exam. (This, again, is good – early detection is highly indicative of an excellent outcome)   On the down side, the dr is concerned about the size of the lump (it feels to be the size of a plump raisin) and the fact that it’s gotten this big quickly (ie: in the last 4 weeks) He wants me to do the tests after my next period (TMI?) so that means we can’t do it for 2 weeks. (Translation: that’s 2 weeks of practice telling myself that it’s still a pretty good day!)

I’m convinced that God put Lysa’s message on my heart just at the time I was going to need it. I am Praising God in the midst of my worry, of my fear, and of the unknown.  God is so good, and I know He is with me as I walk this path.  And it’s a pretty good day.